against the flow

i was expecting an afternoon of recreation by playing my favorite game online. i was psyched! my character was about to 'level up' and it'll only take a few hours. hoorah! so before all things, since i'm online, i check my mail, browse a few pages and such. with that out of the way, it's time for game time! my phone rang in my pocket. it was my mom.

"matt, nasa'n ka?" my mother asked.

"nasa condo, why, what's up?" i replied. it was a lie. i was in a computer shop.

"wala na si grandpa." she said as firm as she could but i could hear a bit of sobbing on her side. i was shocked.

"san kayo? i'll go there!" i said, almost shouting. some poeple in the shop looked at me.

"we're on our way to españa avenue in front of UST to pick a casket. sa likod ng shakey's." she said.

"okay i'll meet you there." i mumbled.

 

 

i've never experienced losing someone in the family. this is all so new to me. i'm not as sad as i should be though, because i am assured that he's in heaven with God.

do you want to have that assurance? let's talk.

i said that i wasn't affected as much yesterday, right? i was wrong. i went to the wake this afternoon and i asked about the details. cause of death, how it happened, yadda yadda. it was so depressing to see one of your ancestors lying lifeless in a coffin. haay. thanks for the genes grandpa.

life sucks, but it doesn't have to.

so i shaved. i'm keeping my hair though. i don't feel too good. this weather is making me lethargic.

"love" is too vague of a word to use.

your life sucks because you let it suck.

i thank GOD for my patience and endurance. she's a full blown lezzy now with matching gf. who knows what would've happened now if i made my move. again, thank you GOD.