against the flow

beat of my heart... beat of my heart... beat of my heart... beat of my heart... AGH. i know it's bubble gum pop, but it's just plain.... AAAAUGH. nakaka LSS.

we were at the condo, ren, kyle, and me, and we discussed the song. how stupid the chorus is and stuff, yadda yadda. then ren started singing the next four words that wasted 2 minutes of our lives. "beat of my heart." ren started singing, then shortly after, kyle followed. and surely enough, i joined in. 3 guys singing "beat of my heart" in falsetto. beautiful. NOT. hahahaha. matagal rin naming kinanta.

off to the christmas party at carla's! party! partay! i was supposed to have a 7-8pm class. i dozed off in the afternoon and woke up at 6:30. "sakto," i said to myself. i got prepped, and headed for school. pag baba sa elevator ng condo, i see my friends from school all hanign out at the coffee shop. wala daw pasok yadda yadda. so tumambay lang ako. went back up to stephen's pad and chilled. it turns out that it was the birthday of my friend chai the next day so they had some drinks. i downed a couple of a couple of shots and bade farewell. i really don't know how to get to carla's from manila, the only time i went there, i got lost, and i was driving. to save up, i rode an FX from UST and went down at buendia where i hailed a cab. made my way to carla's thanks to accurate directions (finally! ).

FOOD. wee. i love food. i love to eat. but we were gonna drink a bit so i dint eat much. we sang, we ate, we drank, we laughed, all in the spirit of fellowship and merry making. good clean fun with good friends. you'll never go wrong with that.

 

shout outs to:

mj, burns, brian, rj, carla, cara, micon, fidel, bea, cheska, donna, and the chinese guy drinking tea. hahahahahaha

it really sucks to be home on a saturday night when your parents are away for the weekend and the car is available.

paskuhan last night was a blast. free food, fireworks, and a concert. i was also wasted. bleah. ampanget ng feeling.

'tis the season to be lonely.

 

darn this weather. it's too darn cold. it's like, you want to put your arms around someone other than yoursel, cuddle, and all that mushy stuff. yeah yeah, you won't usually hear this kinda crap from me, ako usually nagbibigay ng advice and crap, but who's whining now? i should take my own advice for crying out loud. i'm pathetic. i'm lonely.

 

SOMEONE, PLEASE LOVE ME.

the clock struck at 12 and all was silent in the house except my fingers tapping on the keyboard. i was surfing, browsing, reading, and playing a game. i did that till 5am. i always do when im home and theres no class the next day. i slept.

woke up at 10ish to go to our annual christmas lunch at grandma's. some visitors came and ended up leaving the house at 1pm. yadda yadda.

these are lean times, so i understand that i didn't recieve much luxurious gifts from my relatives. i didn't recieve the usual ethnic stuff tita lorna brings home from her travels in asia, i didn't recieve the duty free stuff tita chona buys for everyone coz she's a flight attendant, and grandma didn't give out money this year. i understand completely. this was, after all, our first christmas without grandpa and i could just imagine the money spent on hospital bills.

it was all happy though. us older cousins were laughing at our younger baby cousins playing and screaming encrypted baby-adult talk. there's the kiddie cousins, the "teenage angst" cousins, and the yuppie cousins. i belong to a category of my own, being the only one in college. ate kitty's hubby/bf (i dunno what to call him, he got her preggy, the S.O.B.) mistook me as a working guy. hahahahaha.

i still got humble gifts. tita lorna knew i wanted them ethnic things so she got me a bracelet. i wore it on my ankle to add to my collection. i got some cash from my other relatives. it wasn't that much, mind you.

after grandma's, we left for metro walk. it was around 7 or 8pm. we went there so i could buy my long awaited LOTR box set. pirated lang. and guess what, not one stall had it. NOT ONE. it was a collector's item for crying out loud. i just got a My Sassy Girl dvd for myself for the meantime. more on that later.

met family at starbucks, had my usual green tea frappucino and went to tiendesitas. nothing much. nothing special. just some restos, and shops. my mom, the tiangge addict, scoured the whole place. i just went with her coz i didnt feel like eating. dad and bro went ahead to eat. i got to buy a shirt though. it has a print of elmer's glue logo. it's nice. also expensive. who cares. i like it.

went home.

watched my sassy girl. my sis and bro dissed my the whole first half of the movie. haha. they said it was sissy and crap. hey, i was intrigued by the cinematic trailer. it seemed like my type of movie (hey, i cried when i watched The Iron Giant and A Walk to Remember. i'm mushy. sue me.) so i bought it.

IT ROCKS. so damn sweet. if my bro wasn't there laughing at the movie, i would've wept like a girl. hahahaha. gotta be macho. hahahaha.

which brings me to present time. i'm bored. i'm lonely. it's almost 2am. i'm thinking of going out later afternoon. anyone wanna come?

the christmas season does not affect me much anymore. is this a sign of getting old, or kulang lang talaga ako sa regalo? hahaha

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